I know how my future looks like, Iíll be dead. One day, we will all be dead. What is the point of wondering how your future will be, we all die. I canít remember a time when I wanted to live forever, actually I canít remember a time where I wanted to die of age either. I canít remember a time when I wanted to have a very long life. Maybe thatís because Iíve always known that life sucks, there will never be justice, nobody will ever be worth the same in everybodyís eyes, you will always be judged because of how you look like and what you say. Thatís just how the human brain works, we judge people because of what they look like. Iím so sick of people saying they never judge others because of their looks or opinions. Death will be a liberation from this world filled with hypocrites.
Maybe you think that Iím just a little depressed or angry while Iím writing this, or maybe Iím a pessimist, or even suicidal. Maybe Iím all of that, but you just proved my point. You are judging me for my opinion on this, maybe you werenít even aware of it. You see, while you read this, your brain will automatically make an impression of me, on how you think Iím like and how you think I look like. You will most likely never think about it, but you have judged me based on my opinion.
In the laws it says that I have the right to say whatever I want, but I canít. If I say that I support Hitlerís philosophy, you will either start thinking bad about me or you will agree. If you donít agree you will either start a fight with me because you think it will make me change my mind or you will respect me for my opinion. Nobody will respect me for that opinion. Now, tell me again how you donít judge me because of my opinions?
I have made a big personal decision in my life; I want to donate my organs when I die. If that is not a big decision I donít know what is. I actually have a donor card I my wallet. Iím going to die, I know that for sure. So why not make my death mean something. I would die in peace knowing that I have saved lives. If I die in an accident because I tried to save somebody, and succeeded, I would not regret it. Of course Iíll be dead, so I canít regret anything. I would rather die right now, than live forever.
The consequences of this choice are many, but the one that I choose to focus on is this; I can save the life of many people that want this more than me. I bet there are lots of people out there who want to live a long and happy life, I donít. So should I be selfish and say that I donít want to give them something they need, because they never gave me anythingÖ?
I bet you would accept an organ if you needed it to keep on living, but I ask you this; would you give away your organs for the same purpose? Henrietta Lacks let herself live forever in the name of science, so why canít I let somebody else live longer by my death? I mean, I can save lives. I donít want to be kept alive by machines, I donít want to suffer a long and tragic death. I want it to have meaning for other people beside my family.
Maybe this is not the paper you expected, or the answer you wanted, but this is what you get. Take it or leave it. Like every other person in this world, I wonder how my life will look like in 15-20 years. But unlike others, I donít want to know now what happens in my life. So I donít want to speculate too much, Iíd rather focus on the thing I know will happen. Maybe Iím a writer, maybe Iím a salesman, or maybe Iím a politician in 15 years. I know I want to smile at my husband, and kiss my kids goodnight. But how can I know I will get married or even have kids? The only thing I know for sure is that one day Iíll be dead, and I truly want my death to mean something.